Wednesday, April 14, 2010

OK...don't hurt me, anyone.

EFF EFF EFF. How did Colin Boyd weasel his way into being my fb friend? cuz I'm dumb! That’s why. Yupp. Ugh. Some of you might have noticed my newest fb friend is none other. Now I have all these worries about pictures I’ve been tagged in that I’m… not at my most flattering, and obsessing about finding the PERFECT profile picture. (rolling eyes at self)

Yeah yeah I know, it’s been established that this guy is ‘no good’ for me, putting it nicely. However, I felt it was time for a whole situation update since I haven’t really been acknowledging him in my posts for about a month. So here goes…


It’s been 5 weeks since his gf broke up with him. And I’ve been keeping my distance from him since. I am no rebound. Well…I don’t want to be anyway. And I made it clear by TELLING him that to his face.


I think I’ve been in pretty good spirits since. He’s been texting and emailing pretty steadily ever since the weekend of their break up, but I haven’t hung out or seen him other than at work. I pretty much have a shield up against him now. Even if he is being super nice and fun and says how he regrets going back out with her this time last year because he could have better spent that time with...others, it just doesn’t budge. Which makes me confused when sometimes I do want to let him in. I just can’t seem to do it.


I know the whole situation is this awful, sticky mess…but lately I’ve been thinking of how I will only be working with him until the end of August. After that, chances are we will never see each other again. So, if it makes me happy, maybe I should just go with it regardless of the…consequences. After all, I have tried denying my, feelings, for him, which I will add I have only felt once before (for ex-bf Ashkan) and that didn’t work and ignoring him doesn’t seem to work either. Therefore I think it’s time to buck up buttercup and just go with it. I can only learn and grow at this point. And for now, that is that.

7 comments:

WhitneyAlaina said...

im just relieved you finally blogged.

you know i support you whatever way.

theeastcoaster said...

your mantra from now on should be ugly shoes. and i expect to be in this profile picture or a theres goin to be some um fist-a-cuffs goin on *stewies high voice*

TJayne said...

I'm happy you blogged too! :) I missed you! Whatever makes you happy lady, is what you should go with.

Furrycrazer said...

Dance into the wind, baby!

Amy Renee Martin said...

Well frick. I thought I commented on this... That picture is really awesome. However when I went to see if there were any new comments since mine, I realized, there was no comment from me!

Sorry for the friend troubles. No substantial advice from me. Kinda wish I had something profound. Go with your gut? how's that?

Bailey Morrison said...

Girl do what makes you happy. love your blog, keep updating!

mahuahua said...

Follow your heart and do what makes you happy. I feel bad saying that as it may wind up hurting you... but it may also end up being the best thing you ever did.

Love xxxx

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