tis the season

I can be a freak every day of every week

Ladies and Gentlemen, I have re-arrived. And I’m booty shakin’ all the way.

EDMONTON was killer! I meant to keep yas updated throughout my 10 day stint, but it seemed every time I got a second my fingers were too pooped to pop. Literally, I was either awake or passing out. So allow me a quick recap:

ME AND MY SIS…
Made friends with a guy named Mike. He gave me fried chicken.

Saw Eclipse! And peed a little. Well, I did.

 Kicked the West Ed Mall’s butt, multiple times.

 Ran through dangerous and ridiculously windy thunderstorms.

Caught many a bus.

Went fishing at my Britt’s work.

Stalked Followed the ultimate hottie through campus.

Met a few of B’s friends AND LOVED THEM.

 Saw Britt’s new place and talked scuba dive-biking with her soon-to-be room mate.

 Wore out my sneakers. *GET A CAR

Watched a sea lion show.

Danced our asses off in Funkytown.

Chickened out BIG TIME on riding a roller coaster. (that was just me)

Went to the zoo.

 Rolled down a hill in front of people…a few times.

 Spent the day at an outdoor pool.

Got a wicked sunburn. *which is now a tan, SCORE.

Ate ice creams bigger than our faces.

Gave Brittany Fraser a hangover from my Black Magic punch.

Bought me a derish birthday cake.

 Ate some yummy cheap Italian food and enjoyed (mostly me) a pitcher of strawberry daiquiris.

 Drank, ate pizza, played pool, DJ’d and had birthday celebrations with some fantastic people at Britt’s second home: the Garneau Pub.

 Drove 4 hours to Banff.

 Shopped for essentials: Banff shot glasses, Banff drink koozies, Banff booze.

Rubbed up together in a hot tub. (Brittany, you naughty thing.)

Took off pants in Banff and ran around with them on my head.

Made friends with the hotel toilet.

Saw the rocky mountains.

 

Saw the flat fields of the prairies.

Came face to face with a REAL DINOSAUR! Or two. Or three.

Wore a sparkly Canadian flag sticker on my chest.

Played in a fountain.

Enjoyed all the shops of Old Strathcona.

Played Dodge the Funny Drunks/Homeless people while walking home from the bar.

Witnessed the best fire work show the world has ever known.

Great, great time. Thanks B, for letting me sleep on your futon and always taking my shit <3 love love love.

When I got home I was surprised to have TWO pieces of mail waiting for me: thanks Hutchers for the lovely card! and my June Happy Mail buddy Jane Cullen for the AMAZING PACKAGE! (HELLLLLO WOLF PACK BOOKMARK. LOOOOOVE!) And now, back to work. In comparison to vaca, c’est bleak. Dull. Boring. Yesterday, I was complete Zombie-Tyler. Fortunately, I seem to work well when I’m the walking dead. Only a few times did I actually fall asleep, sitting up in my chair pen in hand I might add. (Somebody get me a pair of those glasses with open eyes…I think could pull it off)

Last night I finished getting organized and unpacking, trying to get back into the swing of things asap. TANIGHT I am going for my second helping of Eclipse with Whit. I am oober excited to see it again. I’m probably gonna hit this one up atleast 2 more times in theatres. Tomorrow I’m adventuring with Sir Evan…shenanigans pretty much guaranteed (and his birfday is in two days! Celebrate good times, come on.) I leave you with a plethora of exquisite driving/dancing/shakewhatyourmammagaveyou music aka the B&T Edmonton Soundtrack - Volume 1.

xo Tyler

Despero is an effed up movie.

This month has been extremely hectic hence only 6 blog posts! Therefore, the following will be the most kick ass post ever seen around these parts. (Probably not but just got with it)

Let’s begin with the excitingness that was last weekend. Saturday night I arranged a mini-SJ celebration! Me, Whit, Jin and Evan all piled up in my car and booked it.

Here are a few side notes:

- Whitney recently was accepted into Education -Celebration.
- Whit and Jin were both celebrating the end of exams
- Evan is just awesome and so he decided to come along
- I had nothing especially to celebrate other than that I love all these people and I knew it would be a kick ass time.
- My dad gave me a 15 year old coupon for a free night at this sketchy sketchy motel The Fundy Line and after much deliberation, they honoured it – free room = ballin! No matter the level of sketch.

So we went down and got all prettied up, just for fun, and went out to dinner at East Side Marios which was really fun and delish, and then went back to our room and broke into the glug glug. After a few hours of never have I ever and many drinks, we headed downtown.

Summary: YAY going to bar! Boo whitney forgot her ID at the room. YAY evan threw some money at a cab to take me and whit back. Blah blah blah blah me and whit drunk talking to cabbie. A quick shot while grabbing ID and we’re off! Back to O’learys woooo! Find Jin and Evan and dance dancey dance! Aaand drink break! And more dancey dance. Dance dance dance. Drink. Dance. Sing. Evan singing to lady gaga. Dance drink sing. Dance drink sing. Bar closes, go outside. Girl crouched down crying by wall. Giant fight in the street! Us running like little girls away. Drunk drunk drunk. Running back uphill to find cab! Home again home again.

Meanwhile, I had been texting with Colin’s friend, Murphy all day and night. After we got home from O'learys 3 of them met us up at our motel. Ok, honestly, I love these guys. They are really not your typical ‘good guys’…I know stuff they’ve done that is very baaad, but they seem to like me a lot and therefore I like them a lot cuz they’re nothing but nice to me. Pretty much had a heart to heart with each one of them about Colin. How he is stupid and doesn’t know what to do or what’s good for him. How they all love me and hate her, and that they’ve all got my back. One of them reenacts how excited and close Colin was to going with me before Colleen snagged him back by referring to me as the touch down and how Colin was right on the end line about to score before he got pulled back. Their reassurances definitely made me feel better about the whole situation, even just the fact that they know so much about me and him. And especially the fact that they like me, it’s good to know they’re on my side.

Once they left Whitney hit the sack and me Jin and Evan walked (slash ran) down the street to the gas station and bought some nom noms! *I’d like to note that as we were running the seam on the front of my bra where it snaps together came apart aaaand i think we all died from laughing a bit.



Next day we got some mcdonalds breakfast (euggh), caught the ending of Despero on cable and hit up old navy for some shopping. All in all, complete success of a trip.


Now I am back at work, doing my thang as per usual. I work for two men mainly, and one of them is funner then the other. So I foolishly asked the fun guy for more work, and what does he do? He partners me up with fucking Colin to help him with some work he's doing. LOL. Just my luck, eh? Not that I mind working with Colin at all, but it’s just a funny coincidence. And I’ve yet again fallen into another spot with him…4 more months to freedom and a return to sanity. Breath. Also when I started the work with him yesterday I got these superiority complex vibes from him, like because I'm a girl therefore I am dumber then him. Well, we shall see, my fine feathered. We shall see.

YOGA is the sexiest thing on the planet. I lurv it and want to do it everyday! Sadly it’s only once a week at my gym…anyways moral of the story I went Monday and..it was hot.

Last night I went out to a goodbye dinner and a walk by the water with my good gal friend Emily Hutch: good luck this summer woman! Can’t wait to see you when you return in the fall.

Tonight I am bout to kick some Evan ass at pool. LOOKOUT! Oh and I will be sending my first happy mail package tonight - je suis exciter.


Ummm ummm ummm ummm. That’s all for now. BAM.






PS: DESPERATELY asking ALL for aid! Every song on my ipod reminds me of him for some reason. I need distractions! Any new songs you have that you can tell me to download so I can made a giant new playlist and build new memories would help so much. Thank you thank you thank you for your support.

My near future..I hope...

keep the good times rolling

Alright alright alright, time for a good old wordy blog. Can I just begin with that it’s FREAKIN BEAUTIFUL OUTSIDE?

Yessssss. Nothing is better then working in a small trailer with the window down beside my computer and glorious sun shining in, listening to good tunes on my iPod. Hmmm. Ok…rereading that, lots of things are better, but it is the best case scenario for me at work sitting at my desk. Ya, that’s a little more accurate.

Anyways, this week has been pretty relaxing. Watched Battle Royale Tuesday night, love that movie! If you haven’t seen it, see it. I got so caught up that I went out and bought the book the movie’s based on last night and have already started reading it. Exciting.

Last night, my good buddy Evan picked me up and we went and played some killa pool. Best part was this short hottie who was, for the most part, sitting at the bar all night and therefore pretty sure he was hammered, or atleast had a good buzz on. He walked by our table twice to go to the bathroom. The first time when he was walking away I caught him eye starring me down. He just had the most serious look on his face, like pure seduction, I actually started laughing. I was giggling and blushing just like a little school girl. And he just sauntered back up to his post at the bar. The second time he did it, I was ready and I kept my composure, trying to equal his seduction look while not being able to stifle my smile. He literally kept eye contact until he was looking backwards at me while still walking away. It was awesome! Haha, awesome because he was actually kinda hot. He was fairly short, but I like short guys, and the way he walked, looked at me, and his general appearance, he sort of reminded me of Stefan from Vampire Diaries. HAHA! Oh geez, ok next topic.

Tonight I am once again resting my head in the fair city of Saint John. My car pool TOTALLY ditched out on me today, so I had to drive by myself...figured I might as well make lemonade! Jbone doesn’t get off work until about 7:30pm so I’m on my own until then. I got to work late this morning (perk of not having to meet a carpool: able to say ‘fuck it’ and hit that snooze button!) so I’ll be here until about 6pm if I’m a good girl. 30 min or so to SJ, then I figure I’ll get some grub and do a little shopping. No, Colin is not on the menu, if anyone is curious. At the moment I’m pretty sure we are in a…fight. Complicated, long story, not blog appropriate.

Anywho, I’m hoping me and Jen get some quality hang out time in and possibly play some Disney scene it, cuz we are seriously ballin’ at that game.

Uhhhhh, what else. God this is a doozie. Can you tell I’m bored at work? Uh, let’s see Friday night I am going to see Two Hours Traffic at UNB sub. PUMPED! Have seen them in concert twice already and they are awesome guys. Hutch and Whit have agreed to be my dates.

Saturday night is Iota Beta Chi’s Annual Ball! I am sooo excited! Evan is coming with me (as my guest) and he is gonna dress up all sweet, he even got this grey vest to wear and he’s getting it taken in right now. I heart him. Predrinking at Miss Whitney’s house I do believe. I am fairly excited for the whole affair.

That about sums it up. Keep the good times rolling.

TUNEAGE!

Cause it's easy, hard as it looks.

lyrics = a simplified explanation to how my brain works around colin

Week catch up

Mon mon mon mon. mon mon mon mon. mon mon mon mon. mon mon mon mon. mon mon mon mon.

Can anyone guess this song?

So! I had an amazing weekend (even though I missed out on all that good stuff that was happening) Saturday morning, me and Dad picked up the bike. Took it home in my gramps trailer, charged the battery up a bit, and even took it around the block a few times. It is PERFECT and awesome. I’ve already dedicated this weekend to cleaning it up and making it all shiny.

Saturday evening I went up to SJ to stay with Jen overnight, YAY! I was in the best mood, and we were having an amazing time….

Until…don don don…

I decided I wasn’t feeling the food court at the mall, so we went to Wendy’s instead, which happens to be right beside a Subway. Guess who was eating supper at this Subway? Come on, 3 guesses.

As we walked to the door to leave I glimpsed the familiar black ranger, and I knew it was him right away because there is a piece of tape stuck to his antenna. (I put it there, long story..) Anyways, I only saw it for a second, but I knew. I said it to Jen and she just kept me walking towards my car. He had pulled around the building and was sitting waiting for us. What are the mofucking odds.

He had recognized my car in the parking lot and had spotted us (likely stuffing our faces with POTATOES! yum) inside.

Heart racing, hands shaking, I tried to be cool. I kept thinking, this is fate: (stupid fate) we are supposed to be together tonight.

After we chatted for a bit his friend texted Jen telling us to go to his place. (Colins phone was dead) So, stupidly, I totally convinced Jen we HAD to go. And it was easy to force her, cuz I was driving lol.

I’ll get him hard, show him what I got. Can’t read my, can’t read my….

So we went, they were hanging out in his buddy's garage, and it was HORRIBLE. Such a man cave: naked women covering the walls, four wheelers, a tv showing a hockey game, a beer fridge, rickety chairs, etc. I could tell Jen was not pleased, but I was just love drunk to be around Colin again, just hanging out like we used to. (STUPID) We didn’t stay there longer then 45 min, we were meeting Jen’s boy at her apt at 10pm, but Colin said told me he would charge his phone and get a hold of me later. That they would come out to the bar and meet us there.

I was terribly excited.

We sat around JB’s drinking oldschool boones and watching Dave Chappelle. Mitch came and we convinced him to drink as well :P. Then his friend came over and then we all went out to the bar.

TWIN DARKNESS

Alas, no word from douchebag.

What a surprise he didn’t come out, he didn’t text me, he just fucked off as usual.

The next day, Sunday, I went to work bright and early as planned. He showed up around noon. Only me and him. Awkward...

I knew I wouldn’t feel any better until I said something to him, so I just did. He acted like he didn’t know what I was talking about, like he didn’t get why I was mad. I asked him what he had ended up doing and he said he went to a party somewhere in the country. (oh and he went by himself, his other friends went to the bar, a different bar then we were at, but STILL) WHAT THE FUCK. Scum, dirtbag, mo fo, piss me off, jerk, rawr rawr rawwwr! Totally DITCHED ME.

Whatever, move on, get over it.

Pa pa pa pokerface pa pa pokerface.

ok SO. this is the goal of my LIFE:

zero colin acknowledgment.

he is never going to change. i need to stop thinking about this whole situation as if he likes me as much as i like him. everything has just gone to shit. but i cant be mad at him for being who he is. it's my fault i let it affect me. he is an instigator only.

i just dont want to feel anything for him anymore, i just want it to go away, these feelings to be over. Get OUT OF ME.

the only way i can think to make it go away is to completely ignore him. like, i still chat with him and such, but i cant do that anymore. i dont want to be mean to him, but i cannot be his friend right now, or keep doing this thing we are doing (that more and more i think is merely a figment of my imagination). honestly, i dont think he will even notice. and it's sad that that thought makes me sad. im tired of being sad.

frustrating. how did i get here? how did i let it get here. i knew better. i KNOW better. how can a boy make a girl throw all sense out the window?


So far this week I have done just that. To summarize his response to my behavior (he has noticed i guess..), yesterday he stood facing me where only I could see him in the trailer. When I finally looked up at him, it was ONLY to see that he was glaring at me giving me the finger. That would be the worst. The rest of the week, whenever I do slip up and glance at him, I usually receive a pretty severe death stare.

Sweet.

Haha, you all thought it was over. It will never be over, until September when I go back to school.

Other than that this week has been quite pleasant! I got my postcard from my Happy Mail buddy. (mail is slow.) I found out who the new students are that are coming to replace me and Brendon :) so we get to train them up over the summer. My guy is someone who worked with us last year, Ali, and I really like him! Yeah!!! He is super nice, and I'm excited. The other guy I don't know.

Oh YA, I have booked tickets to visit my sister Brittany in Alberta June 24th to July 4th! FINALLY. Mon mon mon mon.

I’m super excited to see her and do crazy things. I have never been to Edmonton either, so that will be fun :D. If only I wasn’t terrified of flying, I would be good.

I am looking forward to tonight when Roro's sister, Delaney comes to visit! Hang outs!!! Thursday the Sorority is having a visit from the Founding Sister, which is quite an honour. I have never met her but am looking forward to it. She is driving down from Halifax just for us. Friday is FSTS, the final initiation of our pledges to become sisters! (yay Andrea!) and then the rest of the weekend will be a blur of motorbike, peoples birthdays and working.

Just this kind of day

Yesterday afternoon, and again today, I just can't get enough: CANCER BATS

Little back story...

 

This is Liam, the lead singer. They used to come to my next of the woods all the time before they got "MTV" popular...now they don't tour past Quebec very often :( But good for them for achieving success and all I suppose.

Anywho, I went to this a couple summers ago in SJ. That puppet there? I worked at a day camp at the time and I made it that day at work. I brought it for funzies. We were just walking around, and Liam was standing behind the merch table, hiding. He pops out at us and is like OMG IS THAT SUPPOSED TO BE ME?! Then he asked if he could see it and he got his buddy to take a picture of him with it on his own cell phone! Then I got a pic and a ton of other people were flashing pics of him as he posed. Then he asked us if we wanted to get anything, so we got to butt everyone waiting in line! We got some swanky tshirts. It was pretty awesome.