daily woes

So..so there's this new thing happening in my life, and it's been about two months now..which is no time at all really and somehow it's longer. And it's been so long since I've felt this way that I'm not really sure about anything. Isn't this about the time when the guys gets scarce, when he starts to let you down, when you constantly feel insecure and on edge. Isn't that what should be happening?


Never failing...I..I don't get let down. I am not being let down. I receive nothing but...kindness and sympathy, patience and caring. Enough to bring me to tears if I think on it too much. 


And then there is this barrier. This great mother fucking barrier reef. A 5000km barrier. And I still cannot get him off my mind.

I swear to god I am jinxing this as I write but he is so kind and thoughtful and selfless. Who is he. I miss him so much my eyes burn, my breath catches and no other exists.

It is so terrifying. So terrifying. I am sick falling for this guy. And I don't know if we can survive this distance and time. And I don't know how either of us will feel in 6 months or if we'll even fit into each others lives. I don't know anything.

Except that I am falling. And I think..it is...in...

Some things #Edmonton style

Okay okay okay - so I have been working for full time 2 weeks now. Wowzers, already? Geez. Anyways this is some of the stuff that has been going on.

The guys on the 7th floor are like the bomb diggity. They have nerf guns. They have a target set up. They have mini basketball nets. They have hockey player bobble heads. They have a giant box full of different granola bars. They have their own soda on a shelf. I have been getting some 'real' work from one of them and they are all super awesome and nice. I sit on the 2nd floor..wohn wooohn.

There is also some guy up on the 7th floor that sounds exactly like Kermit the Frog. Painfully so. I was dying holding my laughter in.

One of my favorite work pass times is text messaging my friends. Thank you for the conversations guys it keeps me from stabbing my eyes out with a sharpened pencil.

So like I said I started doing some 'real' work. We'll see how it goes.

I bought a hot dog from a REAL LIFE HOT DOG VENDOR he was set up across the street from our building. It was $3.75 which I thought was a bit steep until I tried it and it was o-my-fuckin-god delicious thank you mr hot dog man, thank you.

The parking in Edmonton is really weird and expensive..I can park less than two blocks away from the office for free on the street but I have to move my car every two hours. They mark a little X on your tire and if it's in the same place when they come back two hours later...BOOM $50 ticket. It's odd. You just run back to your car every now and then and move it a little so the X is in a different spot. And your done.

Then there is the work parking lot which by the way has no good instructions, but plenty about how the company is not liable for any damage theft etc to your car if you leave it there. So I put 6 bucks into the machine and its one of those change takers like on a laundry machine at the laundry mat. There are two sections one with a loonie and toonie spot and one with 3 loonie spots it is $6 to park there for the day. Logically I assumed I would have to put the $6 in all at once so I pushed in the two sides at the same time and out popped only 1 ticket when there is supposed to be 2. Fack. Shaft. Balls. I went and asked someone and they were like you need two tickets for the whole day, 1 tickets lasts only 1 hour. YOU'LL GET A TICKET! So out I went and got my ticket. Waste of GD money...raawr. Why do I always learn my lessons the hard way?

I would just like to say I am pleasantly surprised about the amount of good looking men that work for Stantec. It might just be the mandatory business work attire but daaaamn there is eye candy in my office. Mamma like.

Oh yeah, they are actually nice too and fairly normal. This is both surprising and pleasant.

FINALLY someone commented on my purple hair - It was just a lady saying that she liked it. It's so funny I have been waiting and waiting for someone to say something to me BUT GUESS WHAT NO ONE CARES THAT MY HAIR IS PURPLE. I love my job.

Last but not least I got a flat tire on my way to play baseball. And I mean a flat tire like pancake flat. My sister was with me and for the LIFE OF ME we could NOT get the bolts off the tire. We stood there for about 20 minutes trying and finally this nice guy comes over and asks us if we need any help. He jumps right out and poof the bolts come right off. Why oh why are women not naturally endowed with the same strength as men. HOW ARE WE EVER SUPPOSED TO CHANGE A TIRE BY OURSELVES SEXISM! Just kidding who cares.

Ok - one more thing. This is the best thing I have ever found on Pinterest and fills me with sadness and pride. It is exactly what I think when I think about Fredericton and all of the wonderful people I left there.

LOVE YOU

Edmonton Apt (..til Sept anyways)

So after two weeks of shufflin' I have finally made a lil home in my sister's apartment. Well, our apartment now. I am an apartment renter....whaaaat. No more living with the parents I'm allll growd up.

It's a one bedroom apt ground floor in a nice bldg, old but with character. At the end of August when her lease is up we'll most likely be moving into a bigger two bedroom. We live downtown close to everything it's great. I can walk to work in about 25 minutes and other than being really sweaty when I get there it's great. *Note to self: get in better shape. For now here is a little insight into where I hang my hat - Edmonton style.

Where I park - Lil'Blue!!

Our entrance

My new IKEA duvet cover and pillow set - loove

Our lil kitchen - tons of storage in there though

Britt did not have a microwave because she is crazy so I got us one

View from kitchen into the living room aka my bedroom

The couch actually folds down into my bed - that mat on the floor is where Britt is currently sleeping cuz our momma is in her bedroom, so that won't be there forever

My space - GD dresser from IKEA which took me four days and a trip to the Home Depot to put together

Awesome wall art in our bathroom - my favorite piece in the house

Our bathroom is also itty bitty - like this is taken from the hallway and there is not enough room for me to stand in it and be able to take a decent picture of my surroundings bitty, but it's okay :)

My two (hallway) closets - booyah muh stuf

And finally MEEE sitting and relaxing alone in the apt for the first time - Ahh :)

Chernobyl Diaries awesomeness

Really entertaining! Don't know why it has such a low % on Rotten Tomatoes - only 21. Sure glad I didn't listen and went to see it.

First of all the entire concept of the movie interests me - being an electrical engineer and having actually worked in a Nuclear Power Plant for 16 months.

Such an interesting concept - and totally believable storyline. Usually in scary movies I find myself thinking: 'That would never happen' or 'No one would ever react that!'. The character behaviour in this movie and their lines were so realistic and natural. I would have behaved the exact same.

Great character cast. Fun fact - Jonathan Sadowski's character is named Paul. He also played a 'Paul' in one of my favorite movies ever She's the Man. Sliiiightly different characters.

Got into the scary part of the story nice and quickly, no dickin around. Perfect ending. No spoilers! JUST GREAT EVERYTHING! This movie was so good as far as scary movies go, and I have seen a fair few.

Who really cares that the deaths were predictable and most of them were shown in the preview? It's not like it's supposed to be this big mystery. It's supposed to scare the shit out of you. And guess what. It does.

Totally creepy and awesome and I want to see it again. Would definitely recommend. And now I want to go to Chernobyl.

Mmmmmhm.

I think I'm going to buy a new digital camera...finally. This one to be specific. One of my best friends in high school had a canon similar to this and I always loved how big it was and the way it is held. I have $503 in my account. The cam is $198+tax. I get paid on Friday. I'm doing it. Badass.

My first week

My first week at work is dooooone. Let me tell you, working full time SUCKS. I don't mean working a summer job to make money and then going back to school in the fall. I mean the prospect that the rest of your entire life until you are an old lady will be dedicated to working 80% of the time. It is not fun.

My co-workers and work are exactly what I imagined. Steady, pleasant and mostly dull. I sit beside a Polish man and he is very nice, so that's something. Also they supply us with free Second Cup coffee. I have never consumed coffee before and this week alone I probably had atleast 6 cups. The flavored stuff is gooood.

Edmonton is big and busy and dirty and intimidating and I miss everything and everyone in Fredericton. Thank goodness my sister is here that's all I have to say. Ikea is not as exciting as everyone says it is. I bought a new dresser there and it took me 4 days to get it all together and one trip to the Home Depot.

We'll see how the weekend goes

This just doesn't make sense

There is something happening to me, and I don't quite know how to put it into words. And I don't even know if I should. The nagging in my stomach. It is there, daily. And this release is all I know. But I don't think it will come.

What does a person do when they are torn from what they know. That thing that they cling to. That comfort. That exceptional person that comes into your life and makes it better.

I'm finding that the more I talk to anyone else the more I only want to be talking to him.

My heart it hurts. There's just not much else to say.

Literature Q&A

Stolen from NICETIES !

What are you reading right now?

Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater.

Do you have any idea what you’ll read when you’re done with that?

Probably the second book in the series I'm so exciting

What 5 books have you always wanted to read but haven’t got round to?

Oh geez um I guess like a Million Little Pieces but honestly I probably wouldn't like it. I have no sweet clue. I read any book I want to ha!

What magazines do you have in your bathroom/lounge right now?

None I don't usually do magazines unless the cover photo catches my eye at the checkout counter.

What’s the worst book you’ve ever read?

Don't hate but The Chronicles of Narnia series. I LOVE the movies and thought I would really enjoy the book then I started reading from the beginning and zzz.

What book seems really popular but you actually hated?

The Lord of the Rings trilogy. LOVE the story. Love the movie. Books = le snore for me. Tolkien, you could really really describe a hillside. 5 pages later, still going.

What’s the one book you always recommend to just about everyone?

The Host by Stephanie Meyer. I know everyone hates her writing but THIS IS MY FAVORITE BOOK AND HAS SUCH AN AWESOME STORY. Underrated.

What are your 3 favourite poems?

No

Where do you usually get your books?

Chapters

Where do you usually read your books?

Bathtub or waiting for an apt or such.

When you were little, did you have any particular reading habits?

HAHA! I used to read out loud to the other kids in my kindergarden class and make different voices and everything I was such a cool cat.

What’s the last thing you stayed up half the night reading because it was so good you couldn’t put it down?

The Host

Have you ever “faked” reading a book?

Pretty much for every english class ever. Cliff notes yeeeaaaa buddy.

Have you ever bought a book just because you liked the cover?

Definitely, but only from second hand stores. I only buy books brand new if I've been recommended them, or already read a review.

What was your favourite book when you were a child?

Where the Red Fern Grows by Wilson Rawls and The Giver by Lois Lowry. Both of these are still two of my favorite books. And if you haven't read them, I sincerely think you should.

What book changed your life?

Ha, probably the Harry Potter books. I know my life wouldn't be the same without them..oh I just answered my own question.

What is your favourite passage from a book?

Oh no! I know I have a ton of these I love but I can't remember my memory SUCKS.

Who are your top five favourite authors?

OKAY: J.K. Rowling, Terry Brooks, Stephanie Meyer, Margaret Atwood, Robert Kirkman.

What book has no one heard about but should read?

The Elfquest graphic novel series. Cuz they are awesome and the 80's at it's finest.

What are your favourite books by a first-time author?
Veronica Roth! She is the author of the hit book Divergent which I love and the second book in this trilogy just came out this month. SHE IS 23 and an inspiration. I am writing a book. Soon.

What is your favourite classic book?

To Kill A Mockingbird.