bored and at work.

Sometimes there is work to be done, but you just can’t force yourself to look at it anymore. This is one of those times.

What a snore of a day. It’s only 10:30am. Nothing is in the least entertaining here at work today. My music is not satisfying me, and there is no one around to chat with.

Yesterday when I left work, I said goodbye to everyone as I always do. I usually get a “Bye Tyler” from Colin. He didn’t look up at all and didn’t say anything! And he couldn’t even pretend he wasn’t listening because he didn’t have his head phones on either.

Well, who really cares? Sometimes I don’t say bye, lol. But usually it’s because I’m cranky with him. We made me think maybe he is cranky at me for some unknown reason. Also this morning I walked by him coming in the door and said “Hi” and he again ignored me. Which brings me to my point: I did like Colin, but I also like him in a different way because he is one of my good work buddies. There aren’t exactly a lot of us students around here, and even less of them are fun to talk to! So, basically it’s me and Colin in my trailer, he’s my go to guy to talk to when I’m bored. Brendon is around here too, but in a different trailer.

Now I am dying of boredom and I feel like I want to go say “HEY whats up” to Colin, because that is the normal thing that I would do if looking at him in just a friend way. But then I’m like eff, maybe I shouldn’t go bug him because what if he just thinks it’s because I like him. And he already seems ticked off at me so poking at him might not be a good idea for that reason either…..

Which brings me back to my original dilemma: bored as **** at work. And I look like shite today. And my face is all hot for some reason, I keep having to put my hair back into a lame ponytail. Soon. Will. Begin. Stabbing. Hand. With. Pencil.

the ridiculousness of having a boy name..

so you all know my name is Tyler.

my full name is in fact Alyson Tyler Wanda Faye Fraser. (i know i know, im pretty much set for a career in country music...)

5 names? yes, it's a family thing. all of my siblings have been cursed with it as well. and my children will have an absurd amount of names so people can ask them the same questions i've been bothered with my whole life :)

oh and last but not least, the fact that i don't go by my first name, alyson.

people always ask me why, and i'm like, "well, back in the day when I was around a month old, i just couldn’t take being called alyson anymore! so i asked everyone to start calling me Tyler instead."

HELLO! no one chooses their name for themselves. (unless they get it changed of course)

So, im tyler, sometimes ty. sometimes tpain. sometimes tfrase. that is the bottom line.

don't get me wrong, i adore my name. im so happy my parents named me something original, and that they chose it for such a good reason, and that they mutually agreed it was right for me (because i believe it is, perfectly). i also really like having such a long name and having a first name i don't go by. especially since my siblings all do as well. it seems sort of regal in a way to me.

but here's the real kicker: my name, Tyler, is commonly a boys name. I realize this, but i am in fact, a girl. Unfortunately, this is quite a difficult concept for some people to wrap their heads around.

example: i just got off the phone with a company i've been corresponding with via email up to this date. no, i do not sign my emails MS Tyler Fraser. i don't think i should have to and that it would be kind of silly. Anyways, the woman actually paused after I told her who was calling and said: “So, you’re Tyler…and you’re female.” In this really serious, almost rude, disbelieving voice. I’m used to this and gave her a firm yet polite “Yes” in return. I think people find it especially difficult when they are expecting and picturing me as a boy before we talk on the phone or meet face to face.

Worse, I’ve talked to people who are just flabbergasted, and become lost for words. They'll stutter on their sentence, and say things like, but..but...you're name is really Tyler?

Argh! Yes people, it is true. I am a woman named TYLER. It is possible in this crazy world we live in!

I don’t really mind it usually. I just shake my head and think its funny, laughing at these peoples ignorance. I even had this one company that I was emailing with and they insisted on addressing me Mr. Tyler Fraser, or Mr. Tyler, in every email. (We had a bit of an office joke with that one...) But even funny things get irritating if they’re repeated too much.

So here I am, just a girl named Tyler trying to make her way in the world, believe it or not.

weekend blogging

“Walking by myself down avenues that reek of time to kill”
-L.E.S. Artistes – Santigold

As per request from my whittle: t’s iPod on-the-go playlist of the moment

the adventure - angels and airwaves
anything you want, you got it - roy orbison
anyway you choose to give it - the black ghosts
bad romance - lady gaga
beetles - warpaint
better off as two- frankmusik
billie holiday - warpaint
bulletproof- la roux
burgandy - warpaint
california dreamin'- shaw blades
the call - regina spektor
can't take it in- imogen heap
coin laundry - lisa mitchell
confusion girl - frankmusik
cousins - vampire weekend
creator - santigold
dance in the dark- lady gaga
dead honey - die mannequin
do ya - neil nathan
elephants - warpaint
empire state of mind - jay z ft alicia keys
the fame - lady gaga
february air - lights
fire burning - sean kingston
free bird - lynyrd skynyrd
gimme sympathy - metric
happy - leona lewis
the heart of life - john mayor
heavy cross - the gossip
hell - tegan and sara
i'll be seeing you - billie holiday
i'll kill her - soko
i'm a lady - santigold
i'm not your toy - la roux
i'm with you - the stills
incomplete lullaby- lisa mitchell
keep me in your heart - jorge calderon
keep on - dj champion
l.e.s. artistes- santigold
lights out - santigold
little moon - first aid kit
little round mirrors - harvey danger
money honey - lady gaga
monster- lady gaga
morning after dark - timbaland ft soshy
only one - yellowcard
our own pretty ways - first aid kit
paper gangsta -lady gaga
paper planes -mia
pokerface - lady gaga
the pretender - foo fighters
pretty green - santigold
reasons to love you - meiko
rich girl - down with webster
say aha - santigold
sexy chick - david guetta ft akon
shooting star (party rock remix) - LMFAO
shove it - santigold
skeletons - yeah yeah yeahs
solar midnite - lupe fiasco
south side - moby
speechless - lady gaga
set fire to the third bar - snow patrol
stars - warpaint
starstrukk [Remix] - 3OH!3 ft katy perry
summerboy - lady gaga
table for glasses - jimmy eat world
take my heart - soko
tangerine - first aid kit
telephone - lady gaga ft beyonce
this kind of love - sister hazel
tiger mountain peasant song - first aid kit
tiger mountain peasant song - fleek foxes
us - regina spektor
view from heaven - yellowcard
the weakness in me - joan armatrading
whatcha say - jason derulo
when you're around - frankmusik
you're not coming home tonight - first aid kit
your winter - sister hazel
zero - yeah yeah yeahs

enjoi.

donut fridays @ a nuclear power plant

Yeah, Homer Simpson style, our supervisor brings in Tim Horton's donuts for us every Friday :D I am presently enjoying the utter deliciousness of this gem:


(via google)

YUMM FOR FREE SUGARY GOODNESS!!!!!

what is your fav timmys? for all those gals who live in Canada, that is! sorry for you's who don't have Tims!

Is it just me or...

does Leona Lewis look an awful lot like Santigold?

Today's theme song

Looovin' the dance solo. Performing it as much as possible from my desk chair. Where did JLO go....? I miss her.

8:13 am and jittery?

haha YAY for new followers! i get excited every time i get a new one. if you are reading my blog and not following me...you should be (cough nat...cough m.) Cuz it makes a person feel GOOD!

This morning i drove to work in my carpool and drank a MONSTER energy drink so as not to fall asleep:


The result is that I have an abundance of energy now, and no real way to disperse it. I hope it lasts all day. It feels good, lol. It is like a fun drug...except legal. I don't feel sad about things like BOYS right now. YAY. Everyone should drink these!

PS here are my new sneakers, just as killer as they were yesterday.






I love them.


Last night I watched some reruns of Peak Season, and realized how much I miss it. Killa killa! It was even an ep with the aussie couple in it <3. Sigh...and now Jersey Shore is almost over...what am I going to watch now.


I don't have makeup on and haven't decided whether im going to put any on or not yet. Hmmmm.

GET BACK TO WORK.