(cue australien accent) It's a giiiiiiirrrrrllllls niiiiiight!

Why do my friends rock so much? I dont know, why do they rock so much.

Had the best effing time last night! Havent had a good girls night in too long.

Me yesterday = wohn wohn woooohn. So bummed, obviously.
Driving home in my carpool with a million thoughts running through my brain, I get a txt from my brotha from another motha ju, telling me to get the fuck over there for a mario party tonight. Hilarious! I'm like ok, but i wont be drinking (nobody likes a depressing drunk). i then get this lovely msg from whit: "pansy ass". lol, love how they are coordinating these texts. I'm alone at home, and decide i need to escape my super depressing household funk, so I head over to hutch's for some well needed girly time. We watch a little Chicago (Richard Gere, you're hot) and talk about my effed up dilemmas. Then she enlightens me with this awesome information that she is now allowed to drink again, healed after her ulcer sickness!!! Oh my god, I'm freaking. About this time we get some alisha texts from upstairs that pretty much sum up to: "bad day, need shots shots shot shot shot! and bar". Whit calls and begins to harass me to drink, bribing me with 3 bottles of white wine which she will never drink as she is a red girl. And we are sold.

We all 3 arrive at Whits and drink of the wine and do the hair and the makeup and listen to dancy songs. Meanwhile juju is having a less fun night, one of the guys he invited over is sick and the other is being a doucha. so he is solemnly playing guitar in the background. <3 except then we start talking about boys and sex and the conversation turns quite promiscuous...and julian is still right there listening LOL, throwing out comments every now and then but mostly laughing at our discussions. Love this kind of thing, haha always hilarious and honest and really it's stuff you can only talk about with your gfs.

Juju drives us to sweets at around 11:45...Ladies night! Dancey dancey dancey all night long (or atleast til 1) I talk and dance with a nice cute boy of 20. (Youngin'!) We see lovely Jin out! She is such a sweetheart and my fav asian, lol! All is good with the world.

at this point id just like to say i made sure to delete colins number from my phone before drinking and did not even think of him (much). Bottom line: NO DRUNK TEXTS! i think i am growing as a person.

Diplomat is next! yummy yummy poutine, chinese food and breakfast special. buddy comes with us, and clearly wants to come home with us. im like, sorry im going to whitneys and we are supposed to cuddle. DENIED lol. he was nice though and i will be sure to talk to him today, but really...fuck boys, im over it. Juju comes to get us and we head back, get on our pjs and hit the sack.

<3<3<3

the night was just what i needed. funny how life just works itself out like that.

...aaaaand that's what i thought

well, this will be kept short as i am not getting emotional and/or worked up over this subject again. Thursday was cool with Colin and Friday as well we were both acting normal with no awkwardness. This crazy since gr 10 gf chick, who according to Colin hasnt been his gf since around may, calls him every morning at the same time on his work phone. i can tell he is talking to her because he talks very quietly and what he says just sounds like he is talking to someone who is nagging him. anyways, point is yesterday morning before he hung up he said, "love you too" very, very quietly, but i could tell that was what he said. i have never heard him say that to her before and the last time on his fb was May. so there i was sitting alone in my silent trailer, not believing my ears. seriously, i was shaking and sick. havent had those kind of feelings in so long. meanwhile im texting b madly to call me before i have a breakdown. she calls me right away thank god and talks me off my mind cliff and tells me the facts straight up: that my beginning 'kissing him' goal and not dating him ever has morphed into this, oh god epiphany that i do want to date him and want to be his gf; that he is clearly an asshole since he made out with me wed and now he is telling this poor other girl who has no clue that he loves her, 3 days later! that he is not worth me and i need to find someone who is not an asshole. (why oh why do i like the assholes?) and that i need to quit him cold turkey and just write the whole thing off.

wish it was as easy as that sounds. honestly i have always felt strong in these kind of situations, doing whats best and least destructive for myself. I dont even know who i am right now.

luckily i have the best girlfriends in the world who make me real and who i am and who i aspire to be.

i wish i didnt have to see him everyday, i literally have to walk by his desk to get out of my trailer. anytime i want to leave to pee, get water, print something off, etc etc There he fucking will be. Fuck haha, FML!!!

oh well whatever im over it, writing about it feels good, just getting it all out of my system.

Fuck boyfriends!!!!

well here it goes..

Ra ra ah ah ah, roma, romama, gaga oh la la...

So wednesday night i stayed in sj for a little sleepover with my friend jen b. As was pointed out to me by my intelligent sister, b, i made this date night, not only for gf fun, but subconciously plotting in my quest to get hot work guy (who lives in sj). You guys all know the story, dangerous drunken texting etc etc.

Wednesday begins like any workday. Throughout I talk to colin about staying in sj for the night and that we are gonna go out to olearys and such, jokingly being like you should come out. This goes on and he keeps being ridiculous, saying stuff like no i cant go out ive already missed the past two fridays of work calling in sick, no i cant go out i will drop 300$ that i dont have, im supposed to go to a hockey game etc. meanwhile i am playing it cool, no worries blah blah. he mentions that i should text him that night, and i have to admit that ive deleted his phone number from my cell so as not to inappropriately drunken text him anymore. he says he liked my drunken text..which just is confusing. so im like well give me your cell number i dont remember it, but he ignores my comment. again, no big deal he knows whats happening and he can get ahold of me if he wants, he might have my number, i dont know. the day draws to an end and im walking by his desk, i stop and its so fucking silent in our trailer, i mime "whats up?". he then starts writing something, i thought for sure it was going to say "your a tool" or something, but he holds it up and its his cell #. im completely surprised, but keep it together miming him to rip it off.

so thats the work day part of the story..very good day at work to say the least. at this point however, i am convinced that nothing is going to happen and even if i text him he would never text me back. so i get to jen bunnys and we chat, i tell her the story and she shares her own boy tale and we're both like, skeptical about anything actually happening in either of our situations. we even go as far to say if this and this and this happens, then that is my wildest dream and my dreams will have come true! we're ridiculous and girly, i know.

We go to campus and then to taco bell for dinner and then to the liquor store and then back to her place. its like 830 or so and i figure its time to test out that number. this is the texting conversation that happens over the next half hour:

T: sup we're getting ready did you hit up the hockey game? we walked by it looked packed. Ty

*still thinking hes not going to txt back

C:no we were just at the bar at eastside marios having a couple no plans really u

T:olearys in a bit you guys can come here for some drinks if u like

*again at this point im like, this is such a shot in the dark, he's not gonna come to this random persons house he doesnt know, who is even with him..

C:wheres here

*freaking a little at this point

T:42 somerset up by the greco

C:cool yeah we'll probably be over in a half or so if thats cool with u

*uh, full out disbelief, completely freaking, not even dressed, hair not done, no makeup, not at all ready as never thought would actually be going down

T:sounds good apt 5

*for this text convo i was completely channeling you ro as i kept my calm and cool, and the sounds good at the end is classic you.

frantically get ready, 1 hour later the guys havent showed up. im like I KNEW IT! LOL whatever not a big deal meanwhile me and jen are continuously playing shots and well doing shots lol, watching peak season and then the hills and chatting having a good time. then i get this:

c: i think we're outside

and they were.

him and his buddy come up and join our chill session. we drink we chat, i drink way to much, wish i could remember everything lol...i was nervous tho. haha i just realized its quite ridiculous how intense i am about this whole situation. i dont remember the last time i liked someone this much, its fucked....

anyways colin is sitting beside me and we are just like staring weirdly at eachother and i think i touch his leg or something i dunno really it was all blurred at this point. he is just kind of smiling and laughing awkwardly and he tells me i make him nervous and we chat funny work stories. apparently he likes it when i get water from the water cooler in front of his desk, and he always stops what he's doing. i remember that well and now i am oddly nervous about getting water cuz im stupid like that. for some reason i shift away from him on the couch and all of a sudden he is madly playing footzies with me behind the coffee table and im like WHAT? whats happening? is this really happening??? but less cohesively. at some point we kiss on the couch im told, i dont remember this part. fucking sailor jerrys. i do remember colin looking at me and nodding in the direction of the bedrooms however, and we stumble into jens room and start making out in the dark. i remember jen coming in at some point and then my blur turns to black. fuck i need to drink less lol. colin told me earlier that he wasnt going to go out as he couldnt afford to miss work the next day which was fine, but we were meeting jens roommate there so we were still gonna go. we stayed at jens til about 12 i think. then we were at olearys, from what i remember of it it was awesome. an older man bought me a drink haha. the rest of the night is...not blog worthy and pretty much a blackout anyways.

Tyler and Jens new drinking game:
shots shots shot shot shot shots, everybody. aka shots by lmfao and lil jon. basically everytime the chorus comes on you take a shot. this game is actually awesome, but dangerous and can cause blackouts. (oh wait, i think thats just me..)

to sum things up, my wildest dreams came true...oh that sounds dumb. work yesterday was completely normal and we just acted like we usually do, went to lunch and such, which was great. im not sure whats going to happen from here, this is like one of those situations that helps you grow into knowing the other person better but you never actually talk about what happened. especially since its not a work appropriate conversation and that was the first time we've hung out outside of work.
Keep work life and personal life separate, please.

whho knows whats going to happen next, im not worried about it, just kind of going with the flow and will do what i think is right when its the right time for it..

ill leave you with this last piece of info, that jen was told by colins buddy when we were in the other room i guess: he said that he had wanted colin to do something else earlier but colin had said "no, i need to look good for tonight" That gives me a little hope, as it seems his intentions were as premeditated as my own and not just a result of beer.

Here's hoping,
tfrase.

eugh, my brain is not working properly right now...i have 22 minutes left til 4:30 and i get to peal! literally sitting here staring at work ive already done months ago and not being able to figure out how i did it. blaaaah. tomorrow i will come in refreshed and it will take me 30 secs probably.

i'd like to take a moment and talk about something really important that i havent mentioned yet. this is really serious girls, so you should all pay close attention:








NEW MOON WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!! baaaaahahhahahaha. in all seriousness, it was better than the first movie and totally blew away my expectations. oh, hi jake
how are the your muscles doing?]

g2g leaving work PAYCE! SJ ADVENTURE HERE I COME!

Sorority Inspiration!

I have been an avid IBChi since my first year at unb. Even before that, my older sister B was a member and let me tag along to some events when I was still in highschool. I have always played sports and been involved in different groups; you could say, I love being part of a team.

This semester, Fall 2009-2010, has honestly been the most harmonic for the sorority since I have joined. This past weekend, we had our final initiation ceremony for the PI pledge class. Since, I have been utterly inspired to flaunt all there is IBX! I have just not stopped smiling, like, excuse the stereotyping, a giddy sorority girl.
It makes me proud that I am part of such a wonderful, diverse group of women.

So gushy, I know. But it's true. The other day M showed me this blog: T-Shirts and Mini Skirts: A Sorority Girl's Life . Bad name, wicked blog pics. I mean just look at the house, the extravagant decorations, the matching outfits! The first time I saw it I just thought, wow, we are puny.

I could not have been more wrong. IBChi's rule <3 (lol suddenly I want a ghetto tshirt and/or headband that says: IBCHI'S RULE on it...or a little less gaudy perhaps just IBChi) We also dont use that nickname enough. Like that megan chicks soro, they are kappa delts and we are IBChi's.

Shout out to my ladies!


Love love love love love.

cheese strings

just thought everyone should know that i couldnt get my fucking cheese string open. i couldnt get the pull tab apart!!!! i was too embarrassed to ask for help in my silent trailer so i cut it open with scissors. EFFFING PACKAGING!

resurrection of the past

These were drug out of a certain beside cabinet: the 'journals' of sorts i kept from gr 12 to a bit into first year at unb. My present blog is bound to be influenced...
look close and you'll see when i become a sister of iota beta chi.





























Just a few pages.